A Song.... reminds me of the past...

and memories crept in.

I had fallen in love once. Deeply in love. So deep... that when i look @ that person.. you would be able to see from my eyes... the softness and adore look i always project out....

My heart was broken to pieces. And I vow... never never ever... to fall that deep in love again. I can't take another blow if anything happen again. I'm afraid to fall into that black endless hole again. That was the most depressed moments I ever had in my life till now.

This man...

I look up and I saw him walking in... Strolling would be a more appropriate word. I fell for him immediately... at that moment.. when I look up as he stroll in.. and his eyes lock into mine. That moment.

I search for ways to communicate with him.

I became friends with him.

I became good friends with him. Some1 I can cry to and pour my feelings out and all he do.. is to keep quiet and listen... offering me a tissue from time to time.

It was quite funny to think of it... When I have a BF... he doesnt have a GF... when he have a GF.. I don't have a BF.

So.... we remained where we were... although we know... deep down... the one... is just that one...

The girl that always complain to him and trash her feelings out...

The guy who always remains quiet and listened to her.

And... 1 day... both of us... are single.

We started to go out.

We started to take the long long journey of bus to school.

I cant even remember how we got together... but we got together.

We seldom talk. or rather he don't talk. But he always listens to my chattering.

I still can remember the way he look at me. I knew that he loved me. and very deeply too.

He don't need to say it out. But I knew it from my heart. He does.

He did say it out. Only when we broke up for the very 1st time.

I remembered. He came to look for me... he hugged me and cried. And he ask me not to leave him.

dramatic.

Our relationship finally ended seriously ended in the end. And I wrote a total of 13 chapters of the moments of our days tgt... till the end.

and when i wrote the 13th chapter.. my heart had died. and about 1/2 a year later... it finally died totally.

Ok. my memory ends here. Coz i do feel that the above are sweet actually. the rest is nothing to talk about.

haha.

seriously leh.. a few of my relas are.. quite dramatic one. haha.. i even had a bf that kneel down atlucky plaza i think... to apologies.. and another bf that kneel down in front of my hse, in my room and at the steps of centre point stair case to apologies. haha.

And the only time i was really surprised... was glow sticks placed out on the beach to form the word I LOVE U and my nickname in the letter O. But i wasn't 'surprised'. Maybe it was the right thing for me... but not the right person that gave me. HAHA.

ok. back to work. ;p

suddenly i feel happy im doing my removal of tattoos at georgia’s!

 

saw some tattoo removal thingy and the laser is like the one i went before… PUCK PUCK PUCK. each puck 1 shot. and it last like 5mins.

 

At georgia’s…, each sec is 10 shots coming out of the laser machine.. u can really hear the puck in FAST FAST motion… and it’s over in less than 30 secs. for 2 areas ok.

 

looking forward for the next session. coz she’s sooo nice!!! like u never want to go out of her clinic lidat. haha. coz she got alllllll solutions lidat to ur problems. lolx. so funny.

 

wow will i see any artiste this sat? hehe. although nth big. but still.. i seldom saw artiste in the flesh ma. >_< haha.

Wanted to change yun’s blog. haven done so.

Wanted to change MINE BLOG. haven done so.

Wanted to BLOG MORE often. didnt do so.

What happen to blogging? Why am i blogging soooo lessssssss….. especially after i met dave i think. lolx.

 

Im really really tired today. eyes are already 1/2 way there but i just dun wanna go slp coz it’s only 10 plus pm!!

 

been busy alot with………. work, work and mj(of coz).

 

didnt have the energy to stare some more at work stuff today. so both kind of work? i didnt do.

 

it’s been always a dream. but im glad im realising it. so hope everything goes well!

 

I just need to dong longer…. dong until everything is smooth… and yeah!! FREEDOM!!!! i think i work harder at that then i doing for my jobs.

 

so much things to learn! and im devouring it like me devouring my lovely books. Glad to be able to do sth that i really really like to do. although i guess it might be a lot or rather it is alot of shit work involve.. but… i enjoy the process. ^-^

 

oh. and the results. ^-^

 

GOOD LUCK TO ME and my future endeavours.

 

and will try to get the skins done. i have limited brushes now. haven download all. why cant the brushes come in perfect nice BIG GRAPHICS? like 2500 kind? those really nice ones sometimes just come in max size 60 or sth and it so darn small.

 

will find 1 day go download all the necessary brushes and all that. i will need to use it soon… have told 3 good frens of mine what i am going to do! complicated now… but will sort things out and hopefully jan can go full on!!!

 

but now.. is well. ya.. complicated stuff.

I’m going the above place on 30th July 2010. Appt is at 7pm. But was advised to come earlier.

Going for laser! Heard that it wont be as painful. (i think they bluff me one) haha. It will hurt! But they say they use a numbing cream which is quite good de. So hopefully it wont hurt as much lor. =( Coz the palm de really very painful. 

[Philophobic] 不会伤心的心，不会流眼泪的眼睛。- Iphone crashed. pls send me ur hp number tru msn or fb! says:
fucker
- Jason says:
WHAT ?!
[Philophobic] 不会伤心的心，不会流眼泪的眼睛。- Iphone crashed. pls send me ur hp number tru msn or fb! says:
off sch at 5pm. hm at 530
u fly?
- Jason says:
tcher releaee 425
what to do ?
kill the tcher ?
[Philophobic] 不会伤心的心，不会流眼泪的眼睛。- Iphone crashed. pls send me ur hp number tru msn or fb! says:
ok
eh go down buy ice cream give me eat
- Jason says:
u slowly wait. jus slowly only
[Philophobic] 不会伤心的心，不会流眼泪的眼睛。- Iphone crashed. pls send me ur hp number tru msn or fb! says:
do u know im at hm?
- Jason says:
u think i stupid or not ?
ur car downstairs fake one ?
[Philophobic] 不会伤心的心，不会流眼泪的眼睛。- Iphone crashed. pls send me ur hp number tru msn or fb! says:
o ya hor. damn
fuck
=/
- Jason says:
stupid dumbfk
[Philophobic] 不会伤心的心，不会流眼泪的眼睛。- Iphone crashed. pls send me ur hp number tru msn or fb! says:
never come into my room to greet me
- Jason says:
-.- u also slowly wait
[Philophobic] 不会伤心的心，不会流眼泪的眼睛。- Iphone crashed. pls send me ur hp number tru msn or fb! says:
na bei
u fuck off
- Jason says:
u paste $50 at ur door i cfm will go
[Philophobic] 不会伤心的心，不会流眼泪的眼睛。- Iphone crashed. pls send me ur hp number tru msn or fb! says:
haha

 

That’s our conversation. I love my baby brother.

I havent started on the reno but I still need to blog right. HAHA.

Anyway. Club XXX.

Anyway again. Does anyone here know that dang stands for shit? =(

 

We trust our bf/hubby totally. Not to touch girls and not to let girls touch. But in similar places, the girls will AUTO go touch the guys! and that’s the norm for them u know. To be friendly, sociable etc etc.

So, eh. For whoever info, it’s OUR BF/HUBBY. OURS.

And c’mon be truthful! Guys think with their dicks sometimes. (NOT ALL GUYS LA. BUT HEY. GUYS cant help it if THEY get a REACTION right?????) zzz

So, that is why they cannot go la sup bar! but we can go ladies club!

Coz, guys there, entertain us. they dont touch us. Unless WE TOUCH THEM.

ladies club are just to have fun. see cute faces. see CHAI! lolx. And the people there respect the ladies. Even if we just go down for a drink and not opening bottles like we earn 10k a day, they still make us feel well entertained!

 

For me, I dont mind my bf see chio gals. Coz i will stare too. and even notify my bf if i saw chio gals. but if want go la sup bar. it’s a big no NO!!

coz I DONT TRUST THE GIRLS THERE!!! Which la sup bar you heard before the girls dont make you FEEL DARN WELCOME WITH THEIR SMILES (i don mind this) and HUGS/TOUCHS (of coz i mind these). zzzz.

GRRRRRrrrrrrrr… makes me feel irritated when i think of it. and my head is spinning again now. pui!

 

Blog to be closed for 1 month for reconstruction purpose.

 

GOOD BYE!

To be re-opened on 15 August 2010.

 

*but as you all should know I LOVE to procrastinate. I try to be back by 1 month.*